I just had a very interestingly timed conversation- just as I was about to start typing. It was short and to the point, but after yesterday’s little panic attack, it’s comforting. A gal that I’m casually seeing- North Carolina massage therapist (NCMT) told me (and is telling me as I’m typing) how she’s back from having just diffused a situation. A new WWOOFer was apparently a little stressed, and, in here words, “tripping.” She mentioned how it wasn’t a big deal, and how she’d caught herself tripping out and stressing a few days before when she was snapping at me. She then went on to say that everybody does it.
I have a habit of rolling my eyes when she talks about her intuitive feel for people, and understanding of human nature- especially when she drops full sized generalizations like “everybody trips out.” The eye roll came, and I quipped that I hadn’t had a freak out yet. Her was response? “You and I are different. Yours is going to be quiet and in your head.” Yesterday came back to me, and I realized that, as much as it bothers me to admit it, she’s to some extent or another correct.
I had my little freakout yesterday. I hadn’t put much thought to it today, but that’s probably because I managed to get it out of my system. I panicked under the stress of a new environment, let the tension build up in me, and had a private meltdown last night. It’s liberating knowing it for what it is, and even more comforting that I’m not the only one experiencing it, even if it manifests itself in different ways with different people. I’m a little more ready to face the future and world.
Have any of yall ever had minor meltdowns or travel stress from a new environment? How’d you deal with it?